i really dont know why baby du lan me what? just because a small talk and she hang my call and dont want care me ler. whats wrong? talking and asking got wrong? i rmb clearly i did not shout did not scold and did not use harmful words at all-.- why want like that? hais. i dont know whats wrong now. is it what i think is correct? hais.

this song is tounge tied, quite and old song liao la i know, just feel it very meaningful this is my favourite song:) hais....


Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
(Was it something I did?)
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

Labels: baby, i love you

baby today hang my phone again, like what sia... and this morning so many things happen lols. anyway, i cant get to sleep. so shagg. is like got some one came my house like that but there were nobody around, then it was like when i woke up, got something slap on my face and then my chest and leg like got someone punch me like that-.- don't even know whats happening. and i msg baby baby jitao nv reply. like she dont care wo lia:( and i was wondering what i done just now sia. i also never do anything baby jitao like du lan me dont want reply like that:( hais. but most improtantly, baby must be fine jiu hao ler. the fucking girl and her boyf, listen hao lao. whoever touches my girl then watch your back, my girlf is not for anyone to play with! stop finding her problems when ownself de boyf like other pple and is not other's pple fault yet you wanna find that other person. is kinda lame lar! what the fuck. i dont care what dou hao, no one touches my girlfriend! thats final! i dont want anyone to find her trouble. damn pekcek lar!

just now went to pioneer sec. hmmm baby still dont trust me and my plans, nvm ba.. maybe she just dont understand me ba.. wonjt blame her. i was even thinking slapping that "thing" myself. but she dont believe, i said her name ya, but i was only scaring that "thing" and like i know that "thing" wont really do what i said just now. thats why, but tmr i'm doing not baby, but she dont believe. i'm just finding a weak point so that i can have no fail in this. suan le ba. baby dont believe me jiu nvm lor. i dont expect her to believe me all the way. hmmm so tires. later still need go work. jia you ba. haha

just came back from work. so tired haha! but okay lar. 3 hrs nia. also not that fierce. hmmm chatting with baby now=) going sleep soon lo.. hahaha

baby, i can understand what you trying to say, promise each other that no matter what, talk nicely to each other alrights? I LOVE YOU!:) we shall never be seperated=) cheer up! CHEER UP!! :) don't because of stupid things quarrel ler ya. IMISSYOU! hmmm sometimes i know i harsh lur. but everything is for this relationship de really. sorry for all those unneccesary quarrels yeah. i will always and forever love you de:)<3

BABY, YOU KNOW LOVE YOU ALOT, YET YOU TREATING ME THIS WAY. THANKS. MAYBE ITS FOR REVENGE. TAKECARE BA.. IM GONE LER. HAO HAO HUO XIA QU OKAYS=) 我爱你, 我真的真的很爱你. 我不知道你会不会离开, 我可是我只知道，我永远永远会爱着你，这是我对你的承诺。我爱你!

what i want is only you by my side, got wrong? why you have to treat me this way? tears running down my face, typing all this, pain in my heart, you know mar? what i wanted is just you, isit so difficult? i love you so much yet how you treat me? ya my fault! i'm just being too selfish my own! enough!? i hate this worls i hate everything! why cant i have what i wanted most? why must everything be in this way? i just wanted you to be by my side, my wrong? feeling its so near, yet i forever cant hug it, why! please god, if you wanna torture me like that let me die hao mar? i dont wanna live in this kinda world! am a human, not whatever! i need my own things too! ya so what if i said my heart is shattering now? will you every care? when i need you by my side were you there? why you always have reasons to push me away? why? are you hiding me something? JUST TELL ME WHY HAO MA!!! hais. enough tears, enoug pain. i need you yet you wasnt here. hais. let me die sua la!

drfiting away?...

blah blah blah~ bu jian lo~ only lie:) a thousands falsehoods ten thousands lie oh? haha a lie makes life more interesting then a million of truth uh? hehe. wa really damn chim lur. lucky i understand ler. bu jian ler, no one will ever know how i feel oh? haha ok de lar. =) cheers man! so sian, haven't eat, haven't sleep. continuing this life=) good good! so exciting! hahaha!

sometimes still comparing myself. end up im the loser afterall. just thinking that, you love him more then you love me now bringing comparing to the past of him and the present of me. lols. how sad i am, but i wont give up=) so dont get too happy boy. i will win back myself de lar=) although i hear ler very not happy, but i try to keep everything up in myself. just jue de the way you love him and love me is like a big drift distance. haha. im ok lurhs. im myself, the climax from the start till the end! IM OKAY!

what the hell, so no fun with that edison yeo or what ever he is-.- say me kids then he not kid meh? LOLS! his IQ and EQ so .... still wanna say all those bullshits-.- and since when i say i wanna play shirt. got more interesting de game mar? so sian-.- and Baby! control that dog ley so fucking irritating-.- hmm and dont worry me lar i'm fine no matter what de. dont so stress liao haha!

watching Hei Tang Ma Qi Duo now. Lols. although the show quite old liao and watch before ler, but its very nice lor. is like every single bit in the show gives warm out lo. so nice to watch.. when watching suddenly will miss the days in scool so many happening things going on. lols! but too bad. i'm not a school boy anymore. and their love was like so touching~ how i wish my relationship can be like them.. hmmmm WANG XIANG BA! lols. YaTou so quite lor. i like her reaction! was like so cute and funny! if our life can be like this jiu how, so many problems, yet it will be settled because of their love, relationship, friendship and everything! let other see ler also very envy of their life. HAHA!! this few days so boring, baby at malaysia, dont know how is she. and the most i am worried aboud is will she be a good girlf and do what a girlf must do? kinda scared she will do the same thing again. hope she wont disappoint me ba.. Baby, takecare over there okay? remember to eat, i know you wont eat much but you must! Your ahma don't want you er du zi oh! and sleep early, dont keep on so late sleep. not good de. like me jiu die liao. haha. and remember hor! cold jiu must wear more and sleeping jiu must cover blanket okay? don't catch cold ya!! LOVE YOU! an miss you soo much...

like a bird who lost its wings, a fire withouts its flame..

i fucking dont like she go the fucking malaysia with those assholes.. ccb.. i fucking DON'T LIKE!! knn. you want go you go forever lar!

although can have my dear little baobei with my today but nvm lar.. and HAPPY ONE MONTH MY LAOPO!! hehes love you much much!

edison, listen carefully.. i'm gonna find you out and ripe you off. games starts today:)

its all becuase i'm haikim people. thats why i cant be with you... what law is this? what era we are all in now.. paikia? shirt? gangs between gangs?? what is this. police also got paikia.. lao puey lang all happy together, whats wrong with gangs between gangs de stupid problem?? whose stupid mentality is it that all gangs buey gum?? what is this?? why everything should be me? i dont wanted to.. all i wanted is to be with her like normal couples are. why is it so diff? PHT? HAIKIM?? whats wrong? is only a name isn't it?? i thought people can be together not because only to same shirt de people?? i thought friends are friends?? i thought being together doesn't need to be same gang cai suan friends?? what the hell this world is?? birthday wishes... PUI~ i swear i will not celebrate whatever birthday anymore. bull shits! birthday wishes doesn't comes true.. it's all a lie.. i hate this worls. i hate myself being in haikim. i don't want anything i just want her to be with me.. really difficult?? whats wrong?? i just wanna be a normal guy that can have a normal relationship.. why must it turn out like that? what do i really deserve to have?? a pile of shits? hais. i hate aall this. i really hate it.. i really dont know why gang and gangs must buey gum here and there.. what the hell is wrong if pht and haikim people are friends?? hais.. my fault in everything.. ALL MY FAULT!!!

i only blame myself for being too ahbeng ba.. how would someone's mother will let their children be with paikia?? Hais.. why things always turn on me?? hais

thanks guys, for celebrating my birthday! Haha! hmmm hope my birthday wish will come true~ Lols. Miss baby so much~ love you lots baby!

maybe, Wai Wai, you're right..

today is my birthday. but it seems to be not a good day. hais. baby still dont wanna find me.. whats wrong between me and her? why she wanna treat me like that..?? should i listen to others that to leave her and find a new better girl? but i cant do it.. i really fang bu xia her. hais.

i shall be gone, i wont appear right infront of you anymore, maybe others you can meet and pei, the next boyf, the past boyf, you have time.. yet i'm the one who's have a bad luck myself. i love you. but i cant see your effort in our relationship. i don't think there's a need for you to find me. nth can ever replace the pain accept you.. but you're gone too. nvm i'm all alone. this is what i am. a loner. thank for the birthday present. i will always remember. i love you. and if i really left, is not i dont love you, is i love you too much.

i DAMN APRRECIATE IT GIRL. I will forever remember my 17th birthday present. Thanks! i hate it. Thanks for this "wonderful, sweet." PRESENT! I'm so fed up. now i understand whats a thousands falsehood ten thousands lie!

The same things happen.. I knew that it would turn out like this.. Why i always put a hope in it when i know it's impossible... Hais

One last day:( sian

will my birthday be a happy day?? hais.. 2 days left...

Baby, i love you alot. I dont know why sometimes yu very guai ley. I really don't understand what you want sometimes. but i will try my best to find out.. Please baby, no playing of that MIA again ler okay? Hmmmm. My birthday coming ler so qi dai. But i really hope the most wonderful present in my entire life will really be my b'day present:) No matter what baby, i will be by your side forever. So cheerp up whenever you're sad ok? :) There's nothing more important then you. You are my EVERYTHING BABY!!!! woaiinii:) MUACKKS!!!

Sometimes i really very envy others can be together so happily and so sweet. Every night wondering, when can i be like them too? Hais. It's like something always pull us away. It feel like the myth of niu lang and zi nu like that.. Sad lurh. Hais. But nvm ba.. Baby seems bu zai hu like that. But i know one day she will really come pei me lur:( And 2 more days jiu birthday ler. I really hope that she will really come without any obstacles anymore. Hmmmm If she really come ler, that will be my best birthday present for my whole life lur! Hope nothing goes wrong ba. Hais. If she really come i shao huo ten years also nvm:) HAHA! Hao lar. I LOVE MY BABY FOREVER!!!! i really hope she wont bomb me this time. HAIS....

Today baby damn sweet lur. Don't know who let her eat so much sugar then mouth so sweet. But baby seems to be very tired today uh. Jus t now never even reply me jiu sleep ler. Hmmm. She still have schools tomorrow. Let her sleep well ba:) Okay, get to the point. Another boring day as like before. But alright lar. At last we went out:) In the noon i called WeiRong and he was still sleeping than i was like-.- pig ZZZzzz. LOLS! But nvm lar:) Then i called Edwin and meet him at 851 coffee shop to eat our lunch and headed to JuroonPoint to buy my mommy's medicine. Lucky Edwin got accompany me go lur. If not i can't buy the medicine as i'm under 18-.- I hate when everytimes its all about age and whatever! Is like humans are humans. Some can takecare of themselves and some can't only ma. Singapore so sucks. Everything money lar, studies lar, and the not so interesting law of singapore-.- Hate all these man! But what can we do? Lols. And then me and Edwin went to Safra[Jurong], there, we saw TaoCheng they all:) TaoCheng wad like getting more and more skinny liao sia. HAHA! JiaYou jian fei okay!! Hahaha:D Then we played DOTA together at there. After playing WeiRong jiu wake up find us ler. He came with Candice, so long nv see her, yet suddenly say wanna be lesbian-.- I was so shock to hear her say that. I can't believe every one is changing so ridiculously. Haha but this is also fate ba. We cant force it away. And then we went to IMM to find Linda. She at IMM de Singtel HandPhone Shop there working. So if you have anyone or whoever wanna buy phones, sign contract or what ever bullshits, go her shop buy:) HAHA! Then she pass me the HandPhone straps that will be distributed to every GeeGeeBaby Family. HAHA. After that we came back to Jurong and look for XiaoHei, WaiWai and Adeline at GekPoh Shopping Mall. They went there to eat and wait for us to accompany them go buy mic for the use of our SKYPE program. Can call friend thru that de:) Cool right:) Then all Jiu headed home ler. Well, it ends here again:) Good Nights everyone! And to my precious BaoBei! I LOVE YOU! rest well alrights. You seems to be so tired. Must takecare ya!! MUACKS~!

Finally! Birthday reaching! But also not really happy about it ba. Recently having so much problems-.- But at least everything is A OK lo:) Haha. Baby! come back ler jiu hao, don't run away liao hor, everyone so worried about you ley. Hmmmm 3 more days till my birthday. I wonder what will happen on that day.-. Hope it wont go bad and eveything can go smoothly. And i also hope that baby wont bomb me-.- If really bomb me i will be damn damn sad. Is'd my birthday after all ma. LOLS! So long nv update i very lazy to update sia. And last night was the most boring night f the week liao. Is like no one outside de lor. So sian. But lucky got baby pei me chat till morning:) Sleep early hor!! Hahas. I'm turning in!! NIGHTS EVERYONE!! i mean morning, sumimase-.-

today.. you made me feel so weak, sometimes, you gave me energy. i really wanna know. why everything turns out this way? i know its part of my fault, but seriously, i can see your friends, are much much much more important to you. no doubt about this. i'm disappointed. but what else can i say? forever and and ever. i will never let go.. even i cant feel your love anymore.. i will still hold on. i feel like our rs is like fire flies. it ended so quickly before end, it was so beautiful. how i really wish a fire fly which can last forever. is there one?? i know i shouted at you, you're not happy. but i really trying to control my temper. i didn't mean it. i just need you beside me thats all.. hais, i'm sorry. you mean alot to me. but i can't feel your love anymore. i can't feel.. i'm not last time de xiaoboy, last time what i can do now i cant ler. I'M WEAK HAPPY WITH THIS> LIM YU XUAN!! I"M SORRY. I'M NOT FIT TO BE YOUR BOYFRIEND! I'M TOO WEAK TO BE ONE! SORRY! if really someone have to leave, let me leave. you stay with you friends. i leave alone. takecare ba.