what i want is only you by my side, got wrong? why you have to treat me this way? tears running down my face, typing all this, pain in my heart, you know mar? what i wanted is just you, isit so difficult? i love you so much yet how you treat me? ya my fault! i'm just being too selfish my own! enough!? i hate this worls i hate everything! why cant i have what i wanted most? why must everything be in this way? i just wanted you to be by my side, my wrong? feeling its so near, yet i forever cant hug it, why! please god, if you wanna torture me like that let me die hao mar? i dont wanna live in this kinda world! am a human, not whatever! i need my own things too! ya so what if i said my heart is shattering now? will you every care? when i need you by my side were you there? why you always have reasons to push me away? why? are you hiding me something? JUST TELL ME WHY HAO MA!!! hais. enough tears, enoug pain. i need you yet you wasnt here. hais. let me die sua la!